it has been almost 10 years now. the last time we talked you said you thought about me all the time.. its hard to believe. if ou thought about all that you have missed. Jr high school, high school, my school dances, my prom, my first date, you missed the time that i brought home my first report card with all A’s. when i was with you it was all F’s.. funny how things have changed. im not the same little girl i was 10 years ago. i have acheived a lot and you dont know about any of it. it sucks when aunt leslie decides to yell at me and say i am just like you or when grandma points out how much i look like you. i want nothing to do with you.. nothing! you have hurt me beyond belief and i cant excape that. there is not a day that goes by that i dont look in the mirror and wonder why, why me, why did i get the family that i got, why did you leave, why does daddy do drugs, why are the drugs more important… i have gotten so good at hiding my feeling and pain because of you people think i dont care. i have a huge heart and i wish you were here to see it. wish you were here to see the things i have learned from you.. never trust a man! and always treat a girl like a princess. there is so much that has happened, so much that you have missed, and there is so much more you are going to miss. so its almost 10 years since i last saw your face.